Category: Chemo
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Ready Or Not
I’ve worked on removing the word “should” from my vocabulary at my counselor’s advice. I have seen an overall improvement on my self esteem as a result. Thinking that I “should” or “should not” do something frames my thinking in negativity. For example, “I should feel excited about the last chemo treatment… but I don’t.”…
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Hospital 2.0
Happy Halloween! I’ve missed my goal of posting every day this month of October for breast cancer awareness. But um, I was in the hospital because I had cardiac enzymes in my blood, and we needed to find out why. Remember the last time I visited the ER? I needed a blood transfusion? I hoped…
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Stay Home
I discussed that in counseling recently; not feeling guilty about taking care of myself when my body needs it. Anna, my counselor while Jillian is on maternity leave, asked me what I do when I decide to stay home from work, and I didn’t really know what to answer. I was confused because, as a…
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Report Card
I got my report card today. It was surprising. Every day of chemo treatment starts the same. (I’ll walk you through it so its nice and light, and not too severe triggers for medical phobias- you’ll be ok Jamie). You first get weighed on a scale so that any concoction is specifically calibrated to your…
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Hair
You know what’s strange? The feeling of hair growing back on my head. I can feel a small difference in something on my scalp. The hair follicles that were irritated by the weight of a strand of hair a few months ago are tingly again; it isn’t bothering me. I can feel the air turbulence…
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Rhythm
I had a rhythm with chemo on Adriamycin & Cytoxan. Every two weeks I would get treatment, but I’d go in and get checked every Monday just in case. That rhythm was nice. Predictable. For August and September, at least. Now its changed slightly. I come home extra drowsy from the Benadryl. But I feel…
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New Cocktail: Taxol
Day 3: Thursday. My back was killing me. I got breathless and a little panicked. I went home and called Nick to tell him I should be home in 15 minutes. I called Roswell to let them know I was a little worried about the Taxol effects on me. I got home still very out…
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Finally Taxol day 0
Finally we start the rest of chemo. The beginning of finding out how and when my family will meet my daughter. I don’t remember feeling this determined when starting Adriamycin and Cytoxan. I wasn’t. George was sick and teething and didn’t sleep all night and for the rest of the week. I feel impatient to…
Lump n Bump 