Category: Family & Friends
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Birth Story Three
My goodness. I am glad that I started writing when I did and let myself stop when I needed a break. I finished writing a few minutes to midnight on New Years Eve, I checked on Ellen, pulled back my covers, kissed my sleeping husband a Happy New Year, snuggled in, and fell asleep (for…
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Birth Story One
Once upon a time, seven days ago, there was a mommy with a baby in her tummy and the baby wanted out during a blizzard on Christmas Eve. So the local SWAT team showed up with an armored vehicle to rescue mommy and drop her off in the wrong hospital. The wrong hospital was brave…
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Not Anti-Climactic
Have you ever looked forward to the completion of a thing and felt let down because it wasn’t as exciting as you expected? We all know that feeling, right? Its just the anticipation of accomplishment does not have the pomp and circumstance that you looked forward to. I felt that way at graduation. There was…
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Ready Or Not
I’ve worked on removing the word “should” from my vocabulary at my counselor’s advice. I have seen an overall improvement on my self esteem as a result. Thinking that I “should” or “should not” do something frames my thinking in negativity. For example, “I should feel excited about the last chemo treatment… but I don’t.”…
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Hospital 2.0
Happy Halloween! I’ve missed my goal of posting every day this month of October for breast cancer awareness. But um, I was in the hospital because I had cardiac enzymes in my blood, and we needed to find out why. Remember the last time I visited the ER? I needed a blood transfusion? I hoped…
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Yin and Yang
I’m 26 weeks pregnant. My daughter weighs two pounds by the sonographer’s calculation. My nephew was born very premature. Mom and baby both live in the next town over because he was safely delivered early. He was already in the NICU at his 26th weeks’ gestation, and weighed exactly two pounds. I saw a picture…
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Baby Prep
Every once in a while there’s a sudden realization that one day soon I’m going to have a tiny baby sleeping against my body in just a little while. Smell tiny baby milk-breath; its my favorite smell in the whole world. And newborn poops that smell like buttered popcorn. Cuddles and snuggles in my arms.…
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Not Guilty
I have discussed my limitations. I have discussed my frustrations. I have discussed my desire for control and consistency. I am approaching peace, balance, and harmony. I can tell because today was a good day. I packed lunch and snacks. I ordered my favorite fast food breakfast before I got in the car. I did…
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Pumpkin Day, George!
George loves books. One favorite all year long has been Felicia Bond’s “It’s Pumpkin Day, Mouse!” You’ll recognize the mouse, its the one that usually wants a cookie. Today was George’s very own pumpkin picking day. We met Grammy for breakfast out at the Country Cottage and made many friends in the restaurant. It was…
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Finally Taxol day 0
Finally we start the rest of chemo. The beginning of finding out how and when my family will meet my daughter. I don’t remember feeling this determined when starting Adriamycin and Cytoxan. I wasn’t. George was sick and teething and didn’t sleep all night and for the rest of the week. I feel impatient to…
Lump n Bump 