Tag: anxiety
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Newborn
So January is all the way finished. I predicted it would go quickly, and it sure did. I didn’t manage to write a single thing, but that’s okay. My family and friends all were keeping me company IRL so that George and Ellen had caregivers while we balanced newborn doctor visits, pre-op testing, orthopedic visits,…
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Birth Story Two
This is the messy part. Childbirth cannot be retold without the mention of blood and other fluids, so this is your trigger warning. I’ll tell it from my perspective, and for me it wasn’t too gory. Watching it happen was different, I’m sure. I cling to the slick black bench of the Humvee with my…
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Expressing Negativity
I feel like my breasts are useless. I have a baby who needs to be fed. And I’m wracked with grief again because I may have used them for the very last time already. I comforted my girl in the hospital and she took in a tiny bit of colostrum. It’s a drop in the…
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Not Anti-Climactic
Have you ever looked forward to the completion of a thing and felt let down because it wasn’t as exciting as you expected? We all know that feeling, right? Its just the anticipation of accomplishment does not have the pomp and circumstance that you looked forward to. I felt that way at graduation. There was…
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Creative Constipation
Part One: Bad times TRIGGER WARNING: anxiety of surgery. You can try reading, its not as bad as “Port Day,” but I reference the experience and other surgeries. I had a creative block in November. I had two excuses listed in Infrequent from November 16, 2022. And they weren’t lies or exaggerations, but not the…
Lump n Bump 